The love we share, seems to go nowhere, and I've lost my light, for I toss and turn I can't sleep at night
Valentine's Day is about love. So let me talk about love. Not in the sense that you think, but in a more detailed way. What you do for love. Someone asked me how I have time to sew/bake/cook/take care of two kids/work all at the same time. I make it happen because I love to do it.
Thinking back, I realize that I have been working in architecture for almost 20 years. TWENTY YEARS. My first job at an office, I had to be driven to, because I didn't have my license. That is how long I have known what I've wanted to do with my life. It's very hard to let go of that.
As far as the kids - I wake them up. I feed them, clothe them, take them to school, go to work. Pick them up, feed them again, bathe them and put them to bed. They are going through a 'mommy-only' phase and while it's nice to be loved, it's also insanely burdening.
When the kids go to bed is when I start sewing. Or crafting. Or designing. Or baking. Knowing full well I have to get up in just a few hours to ready the kids. Crazy? Yes. But it is the only way that I can destress. Yes, sewing a ton of Valentine's pouches or baking dozens of cookies is how I destress.
I do all of these things simply because I LOVE to do them. If I didn't, I wouldn't. Frankly, yes - I am too old for this shit. I am all Danny Glover Lethal Weapon 4, up in here. Something's gotta give, as lately I am starting to feel that pull. That stress. But I can't worry about that now. I think I should go bake some cookies...
Thinking back, I realize that I have been working in architecture for almost 20 years. TWENTY YEARS. My first job at an office, I had to be driven to, because I didn't have my license. That is how long I have known what I've wanted to do with my life. It's very hard to let go of that.
As far as the kids - I wake them up. I feed them, clothe them, take them to school, go to work. Pick them up, feed them again, bathe them and put them to bed. They are going through a 'mommy-only' phase and while it's nice to be loved, it's also insanely burdening.
When the kids go to bed is when I start sewing. Or crafting. Or designing. Or baking. Knowing full well I have to get up in just a few hours to ready the kids. Crazy? Yes. But it is the only way that I can destress. Yes, sewing a ton of Valentine's pouches or baking dozens of cookies is how I destress.
I do all of these things simply because I LOVE to do them. If I didn't, I wouldn't. Frankly, yes - I am too old for this shit. I am all Danny Glover Lethal Weapon 4, up in here. Something's gotta give, as lately I am starting to feel that pull. That stress. But I can't worry about that now. I think I should go bake some cookies...
1 Comments:
TAINTED LOVE!!!!! I LOVE that song!!! wow, that's so wierd...
I too, love to sew and "create" things...and I haven't done it in a long time, so I feel stagnant. Keep it up, hey, that's the only "me" time you get...nothin wrong with that!
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